Hi, it’s still about me and my birthday.
In the last post I already thank my acquaintances (family, friends, etc), but I haven’t mention my gratefulness to the most important person in my life. Someone that I can’t live without. My great, awesome DADDY.
Thank you, Lord for all your guidance upon me. I know I’ve been such a naughty and rebel daughter this past year. Maybe no one really notice how bad is my relationship with You this past year. I avoided many chances to serve You, even when I serve You, I didn’t do it wholeheartedly. Came to services – but only my body presence there, my soul is flew away through times and dimension. I’ve become more selfish and individualist. I was too angry with You, everything wasn’t happened according to my plan last year. Too many dreams and plans were broken. I realize that everything happens for my own good. This understanding is already planted deep down in my mind. But when everything seems out of my control, I started questioning Your will, mad at you, blaming You for everything happened upon me. Okay.. It’s really childish. I’m just like Elijah, when problems came my way, I withdrew myself from the community. And it made our relationship worst than ever.
Through many things You call me back, but I kept run away. Even though I realize how big is Your love, I still hardening my heart. Until dunno when, I was getting tired running away from You. Then I realize that I’m nothing without You, all the greatest thing I ever done, I did it with You by my side. All the happiest moment in my life was given by You. And now, here I am, thanking for Your love, Your patience, thanking You for not giving up on me. Also sorry for all those silly attitudes, rebel act, and for my stubbornness.
I’m trying to be the old me, who trust You wholeheartedly, always put You as my number one. But Lord it’s really hard. Mending a broken relationship is far harder than building a new relationship. The problem is within myself. Questioning Your plan already became a habit. I know I can’t mend this relationship by my own might, but I’m sure by Your grace it can. You gave me another chance to know You better, to serve You better. Teach me, mold me, use me as Your tool. May in this new age I can be a better person that makes You smile. X)
Thank You Lord,
See by faith, done by love, n walk by grace~
