June 30, 2011
June 29, 2011
Mewujudnyatakan Kasih Mula-Mula dalam Kehidupan – Family Retreat GKI Bungur
Last week I attended GKI Bungur family retreat that was held at Hotel Yasmin, Puncak. To be honest I wouldn’t attend if Ci Shy wasn’t appointed me to be one of the committee. I would rather save my leaving permit for my trip to Thai next August. But Thanks God, He use Ci Shy and Ko Rony to make me join and participating in this retreat. This retreat not only refresh my mind as His servant, but also as a person and as a worker in secular world. The speakers are good, such as Yohanes Adrie, Paulus Lie, Marojahan Sijabat (Bang Ojak), Lili Efferin, Rully Simanjuntak, Antonius Tanan (the owner of Ciputra Group), etc. Unluckily I can’t attend all the sessions, but still I got so much blessing by attended this retreat.
The objective of this retreat is to remind us, the feeling when we first follow God and serve Him. It based on Revelation 2-:1-7. The Ephesians was reprimanded by God even they such an ideal model for a good church. They never compromised with sins, served God the way God told them, but God against them because they has left thy first love. All the sessions in this Retreat solicit us to introspect within our selves.
Because most of the time I assisted in Youth sessions, so what I got the most is from Bang Ojak. These are few points that has rooted in my mind from this retreat:
1. We are special coz we made by God’s hand. We can do anything if really want to. Believe in yourself. God never creates a garbages.
2. God never asks something that you don’t have.
3. It’s not what you have that is matter, but what you do with what you have that is matter.
4. Life is short. What have you done with what you have recently? Have you fulfilled God’s purpose on you? Have you told your parents or family that you love them, have you showed it with real deeds?
From Paulus Lie:
5. If you serve HIM in your utopia (comfort zone), it’s not a service, it’s fun. A service means, you go out from your comfort zone, serve at the place that people need the most.
From Rully Simandjuntak
6. God is more concern for your BEING rather than on your DOING. He won’t always give you an easy road, sometimes you would find many obstacles on your job, it’s because He wants you to grow up and be mature.
7. Work hard, work smart, work sincerely.
8. God has created life as a field to learn
9. Start the day with thankful feelings and end it with evaluation.
9. It’s not a job that give us peace, but God has used your Job as a medium to give you peace
10. You are blessed to be a blessing in wherever you are right now.
Those few points reprimanded me. I’m not confident with my ownself, there are many things that I’m lack of, and I used it as a reasons to withdraw myself from many services or chances. And it also the reason I don’t have a courage to chase my dreams until now. Bang Ojak reminds me that I’m special, and if God asks me to do something He knows that I’m capable to do it. I can do all things with Him by my side. I used to blame God why He gave me some talents but it’s just so-so. But I realized it’s not God’s fault, It was mine, God already gave me many talents, but I haven’t practiced and developed it yet, so it was just so-so talents. I never can be a good liturgist if I never have enough practice, I would never get a good score, if I never study before the test. I would never reach my goal, if I never put an effort into it. What results have you expected if you haven’t given your best shot? Believe in yourself , coz God already gave you the capital to do great things and He never asks something that you don’t have.
Pak Rully also reminds me that I need to enjoy my job instead of being grumpy. – Well to be true, I enjoy my job, but there are few things that makes me uncomfortable with my job right now-. He told us to be thankful all the time. People can see us when we enjoy our work, and the result will come out better. What he had faced in one of the government institution is harder that my challenges right now, so I think i still can handle it. I mustn’t be grumpy with my condition, instead I need to be thankful and see the bright side… Just an intermezzo, after being refreshed by Pak Rully’s speech, I’ve made a commitment about my job, but the first day I come back to work, I already had a test..And i almost failed. Xp
June 20, 2011
The Reasons Why I still Hang On
Okay..I’m trying to list down the reason why I need to hang on and not quit. While there are few companies whom tried to recruit me and I already refuse all of them without even trying to attend the first interview. Trying to make up my mind and see the positive sides..Haish..
1. I’m still fresh in marketing field, I still need to learn the market leader way of thinking and I need to make up my CV.
2. Hmm..Maybe If I’m quit, I won’t get another company that permit me to go home on time (Teng Go), that allows me to have my social life and fulfill my services .
3. The facilities here are quite ok, even sometimes I still feel I’m underpaid (after seeing the vacancy with same position but simpler job desc and higher salary). I don’t wanna leave my utopia zone, even these few weeks feel more like hell for me (drama queen mode on).
4. I feel sorry for ED (big big boss) and HT (big boss) who taught me so many things and I don’t know how to tell them if I want to quit. Especially to HT who was my direct boss and tutor and I respect him so muuuuuch. The only reason that can give me courage to tell him I quit is if I get a scholarship to study master degree.
5. They haven’t found another staff that can help or replace me yet. (of course they haven’t, while I haven’t place my resignation letter)
6.The silliest reason is, if I quit right now, I can’t get leave permit to enjoy my Thai trip next august..Huehehehe…and especially can’t have enough money to enjoy it. Xp
Are they enough to keep me here?Still dunno, I still have many ambitions that can’t be fulfilled here, and I already fed up with some conditions here. Ow..the most crucial reasons why I must stay is:
7. I need to prove to myself that I’m not a quitter!!I will fight till the end. What I mean “till the end” is I need to resolve “the thing” that fed me up these days and someday I can proud of myself that I’ve grown up in making decision.
Ciayoooooo!!!!!Zu zu!!!!You can do it devie…You are more capable than what you think..Learn to be thankful and not grumpy, and then you can see the brighter side.
June 19, 2011
Happy Father’s day, dad
Happy father’s day, daddy. I wish I can tell it directly to you. Even though I know that you’re not here anymore, you’re still my hero.^^..What I regret the most is I never tell you how much I love you. At the airport, the last time I saw you, I wish I had the courage to hug and tell you that I love you. Unluckily, because of the awkwardness, I didn’t do that. geez..I love you so muuuuucccch….
This song from Ada band and Gita Gutawa is dedicated for you, dad.
“yang Terbaik Bagimu”
Teringat masa kecilku
Kau peluk dan kau manja
Indahnya saat itu
Buatku melambung
Di sisimu terngiang
Hangat nafas segar harum tubuhmu
Kau tuturkan segala mimpi-mimpi
Serta harapanmu
Kau ingin ku menjadi
Yang terbaik bagimu
Patuhi perintahmu
Jauhkan godaan
Yang mungkin kulakukan
Dalam waktuku beranjak dewasa
Jangan sampai membuatku
Terbelenggu jatuh dan terinjak
Reff :
Tuhan tolonglah sampaikan
Sejuta sayangku untuknya
Ku terus berjanji
Tak kan khianati pintanya
Ayah dengarlah betapa sesungguhnya
Ku mencintaimu
Kan ku buktikan ku mampu penuhi maumu
Andaikan detik itu
Kan bergulir kembali
Kurindukan suasana
Basuh jiwaku
Membahagiakan aku
Yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu
Tuk wujudkan segala sesuatu
Yang pernah terlewati
我好想你爸爸，我想告訴你，我真的真的 很愛你
I don’t know whether I can do a great things, but for sure, i promise to do a small things that can makes you proud of me. Love you, dad, so muuuuuch…Saranghaeyo..
