What Faith Can Do

Just like usual, I’m reprimanded by a song..agaiiiiin…Lately I’ve been wandering without any purposes. Well I have some goals, but I have no trigger nor courage to chase it, and I’m start telling myself that maybe is not my way, it’s impossible to reach, etc, etc. But this song hit me to the core. It says that impossible is not a word, it’s just a reason for someone not to try. Hahahaha..that’s so true.. The first time I heard this song, I was stunned. It makes me realize that recently I’m just trying to find a reason not to get out from my utopia, I’m just too comfort with my condition right now which make me don’t want to face another challenges. This song strengthen me and I hope it can strengthen others too..Yes..Faith can helps you, strengthen you to be what God wants you to be. Hope you enjoy it.

Here is the lyrics:

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think its more than you can take
But you are stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don’t have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That’s what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows part 2; movie and book comparation

Finally…Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallow part 2 (HPDHP2) are in the cinema!!! Well..after watching Harry Potter and the Deathly hallows part 1 (HPDHP1) I expect too much for this movie, and in the end, I’m the one who feel upset. HPDHP1 is the best Harry Potter movie I”ve ever watched because the movie is 90% identical with the books and makes my imaginations become real. While HPDHP 2 makes some changes and deleted many explanation scenes, which makes some people who didn’t read the book still wonders the reason and background of some part. Apart from the book the movie is awesome, but compared with the book, I’m upset..TT..

I don’t feel Harry’s emotion in some crucial scenes. His face was so flat. What I like from the movie, they put some light and comical scenes,like Ron speaks in parseltongue, and he tell Hermione that he used to hear harry speaks parseltongue in his dream. XP. And I also like Molly Weasley”s expression when She defeat Bellatrix. Her eyes and smile was great, it’s a victory expression that can’t be easily forgotten..Xp. I think it’s enough for my mumbling and rumbling insight. These are the differences between book and the movie that I found, some are crucial, but some can be ignored.

At the beginning. The movie begins with Harry, Ron, and Hermione confront Griphook. If you read the book, you can imagine how Harry is struggling between the Horcruxes and the hallows.

The Movie: Harry chooses Griphook instead of interrogating Ollivander. Griphook immediately agree to help them after Harry gave him permission to take Gryffindor sword as the payment. At the Lestrange’s vault, the treasures will multiplied if being touched

The book: It took 4 days for Griphook agreeing to assist Harry break into Gringotts . After Griphook helps Harry and the gang to enter Lestrange’s vault, the book show more hindrance. Besides, multiplying, the treasures also burnt the one who touch them. It feels more challenging, isn’t it?Xp

At Gringotts. This is the reason why I prefer the book rather than in the movie. The movie always (or mostly) shows Harry and Ron as stupid persons that can’t even think any idea to help their own selves, while Hermione always being the extraordinary one.This one example from the Gringotts’ scene

In the movie: Hermione is the one who urges them to hop to the dragon and release it from the chain.

In the book: harry is the one who takes the initiatives, hoping to the dragon, and releases the chain from the dragon. Hermione is helping to break down the ceiling.

Then there is an additional scene in the movie. It shows that Voldie kills all the goblins including Griphook, and then the Gryffindor sword is disappeared. This scene maybe intended to those who aren’t read the book, so they don’t wonder why the sword suddenly back to the wizard’s hand.

The searching for Ravenclaw’s Diadem are really different from the book.

The movie version: Harry, Ron, and Hermione enter the Room of Requirement together with Neville. In the middle of their reunion, Snape calls all students to gather at the great hall to announce about Harry’s intrusion to Hogsmeade. While Snape asks anybody who knows about Harry’s arrival to step forward, Harry shows himself to the audience, then McGonagall come forward to protect Harry. Snape runs away in this scene. And after that, Harry secedes himself from Ron and Hermione. Harry is looking for the lost diadem, while the couple is looking for  another way to extinguish the horcrux. Harry gives Marauder Map to them. Luna chase Harry, she;’s the one who told Harry about Helena Ravenclaw (another scene that indicate harry can’t think by his own self). Harry speaks to Helena and she pointed where the lost diadem are hidden. He goes to the room of requirement alone without knowing how the diadem looks like. He’s ambushed by Malfoy, Crabbe, and Goyle. Luckily his bestfriends come in the right time to help him after destroying the horcrux in the Hufflepuf’s cup. Crabbe cast the fiendfyre spell which burn the room requirement. Harry, Ron, and Hermione helps Malfoy and Goyle escape. Five of them are saved. Harry takes the basilisk’s fang from Ron to stab the horcrux in the tiara, What’s weird in this scene is, Cho Chang is still being a student at Hogwarts, in fact she’s one year older than Harry.

The book version: Harry, Ron, and Hermione together with Neville arrive at room requirement. In the middle of their reuinion, Luna, Dean, and the other Dumbledore Army who already graduated come through the same tunnel (including Cho Chang who has graduated and Ginny who has been hiding since Christmas holiday). All the Dumbledore Army in the room of requirement ask to be participated in defeating You Know Who, so Ron’s ask them to help finding the diadem. In the end of discussion, Luna accompanies Harry to the Ravenclaw’s tower. There, Alecto Carrow already being there and she directly touches her dark mark to inform the dark lord. Harry jinx the professor so she’s unconscious. The other Carrow comes to help his sister but is interrupted by McGonagall. Then both of them enter the ravenclaw’s tower, but harry and Luna already hid in the invisibility cloak again, so they only see the unconscious Alecto. Harry’s too angry when Carrow spit to McGonagall, so he shows himself and defend his fav teacher. After they take care of the Carrows, McGonagall asks Harry what he’s doing at Hogwarts and tend to help harry by buying time for him. She sends her patronus to inform other Heads of house, so they can extract the under age and prepare for fight. Snape run after being attacked by McGonagall-Flitwick-Sprout. Nobody in living memory knows where the lost diadem is. So Harry found out by himself, if there aren’t any living memory knows, the ghost maybe know the location of the lost diadem:. He searches for the grey lady who is Ravenclaw’s ghost. After the conversation he knows that the Grey lady is Helena Ravenclaw, daughter of Rowena ravenclaw, and he also concludes that the diadem was in the room of requirement all this long, the room where he hid his book of potion. Harry back to the room of requirement, but he can’t find either Ron or Hermione. So on, He searches them through Marauder’s Map. Ron and Hermione meet him with a basilisk fangs and destroyed Hufflepuf’s cup. All of them are heading towards the room of requirement. Harry already knows how the diadem looks like because he already seen it when he hid his potion book at his sixth year in hogwarts, Ron and Hermione also already had the sketch of the diadem from Luna’s father. They are attacked by the Malfoy and the gang. Crabbe cast the fiendfyre which also destroy the horcrux in the diadem. Harry- Ron- Hermione save Malfoy and Goyle, while crabbe is dead.

The movie shows Snape’s memory in tears, different from the book and also from the prequels, who describe the memory as a silver light that can be kept in a vial. Snape’s memory in movie isn’t deeply described as in the book, though still touching. Hmm..I’ve been wondering about the pensieve. Is it the same pensieve like in the previous movies?From what I remember from the previous movie, the pensieve was made from stone like the book has described, but in this movie it was made from silver metal..Xp

After getting into Snape’s memory.

In The movie: Harry meet Ron and Hermione in the stair and tell them don’t forget to kill nagini if something happen to him

In the book: Harry is wearing his invisibility cloak, he passes Neville, and then He told Neville to kill the snake if Harry, nor Ron, nor Hermione don’t have the chances to do that.

At The Forest. After Voldemort casts Avada Kedavra upon Harry.

In the movie: Harry finds himself in a white and misty room. Harry sees a creature like baby who moans desperately. It was the Voldemort’s soul which has lived in him for more than 17 years. Voldemort is the one who killed his own soul. And then Harry meets Dumbledore. Have a chitty chatty. Dumbledore explain about the Horcrux, and what Harry can do next. Harry back to reality. Voldemort also falls to the ground. Some death eaters try to help him stand up. Narcissa slow but sure approach harry. She realizes that Harry isn’t dead, then she asks harry how’s Draco’s condition. She lied to Voldie that Harry already dead. The death eaters march to Hogwarts ground. At that time Neville is walking outside the ground and found the sorting hat, he looks inside the hat and his expression is changed. Voldie and his death eaters arrives on the ground and he makes the announcement that Harry is already dead. All the Hogwartians go outside, then Voldie asks them to surrender, and move to his side. Draco Malfoy follows his parents command, and their family sneak out from the death eaters parade. Neville tries to resist Voldie and encouraging the Hogwartians in the same time. In the middle of catastrophe, Harry rises from his unconscious act, make all the people shock, and the war begins. Harry is dueling with Voldie, while Hermione and Ron try to kill the snake, in the end Neville who has the Gryffindor sword cut the snake in the school area. Harry and Voldie’s dueling place changes into the ground, harry explains about the wandlore law, “the wand choose his own master” – “when its own master was defeated/ disarmed, the wand changes his allegiance”. So on, there is no need to kill the wand owner. ~ The explanations about the wand ownership is blur so many people still wonder about how it works.~. Voldie finally dies. Harry gathers with his friend, he explain everything to Ron and Hermione, breaks the wand to pieces and THE END

In The book: Harry also finds himself in a white and misty room. Sees a small creature’s moaning, and meet Dumbledore. In the conversation, Dumbledore explain about the Horcruxes, the Hallows and its relationship with Harry (Harry is actually the descendant of the Peverell brothers who create the hallows), His obsession with the Hallows and why Harry is still alives after Voldemort kills him. He tells Harry that indeed Voldemort’s soul had lived in him for more than 17 years, Voldie made the bond between them stronger by taking Harry’s blood to rebuilt his living body. So, Liliy’s enchantment is still working to keep Harry alive. The chitty chatty goes on. Harry awakes in the forest but pretending that he died. Voldie is falling down on the ground after casting the death spell. He stands up and pointed Narcissa to check on Harry. Narcissa realize that harry is still alive, then she asks about Dracos’ condition. She also lied to Voldie that harry is dead. They parade to the Hogwarts ground. On the way to Hogwarts, all the centaurs is watching from a far. Hagrid yells at them for being coward. The Death eaters’ parade arrive, Voldie makes the announcement that the boy who lives already dead while trying to runaway. The Hogwartians come out, they’re in shock, but Neville keep resisting. Voldie tries to  attack Neville, suddenly the sorting hat come out and landing on Neville’s head. There are some events happen, then Neville pull the sword from it and slash the snake immediately. The war begins, it involves not only wizard and witch but also other creatures such as house elves, centaurs, and giants. Harry hid himself in his invisibility cloak during the catastrophe. The final war happens in the great hall. Harry pulls out his invisibility cloak after protecting others, and the he faces Voldie one on one. Harry explains to Voldie what’s happen between them, what Harry has that makes him superior than Voldie, he also explain about the ownership of the wand,and makes a statement that he’s the elder wand’s owner. Voldie dies because his spell backfires on him. There’s a celebration party. Harry, Ron, and Hermione sneak out to Dumbledore room. Harry repairs his own wand using elder wand and tend to hide the elder wand until he dies normally.  And then THE END.

19 years later. At the King Cross Station. Albus Severus is so cuuute..There isn’t any significant differences, but James is not as fussy as in the book..^^..And finally the journey of Harry Potter has end. Hix..My journey since I was in the seventh grade..TT..Kinda hard to let it go, but I’m quite satisfied with the ending. Thank you to JK Rowling who has colored my life with her book.Harry Potter series will always be one of my favourite books ever..

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Mewujudnyatakan Kasih Mula-Mula dalam Kehidupan – Family Retreat GKI Bungur

Last week I attended GKI Bungur family retreat that was held at Hotel Yasmin, Puncak. To be honest I wouldn’t attend if Ci Shy wasn’t appointed me to be one of the committee. I would rather save my leaving permit for my trip to Thai next August. But Thanks God, He use Ci Shy and Ko Rony to make me join and participating in this retreat. This retreat not only refresh my mind as His servant, but also as a person and as a worker in secular world. The speakers are good, such as Yohanes Adrie, Paulus Lie, Marojahan Sijabat (Bang Ojak), Lili Efferin, Rully Simanjuntak, Antonius Tanan (the owner of Ciputra Group), etc. Unluckily I can’t attend all the sessions, but still I got so much blessing by attended this retreat.

The objective of this retreat is to remind us, the feeling when we first follow God and serve Him. It based on Revelation 2-:1-7. The Ephesians was reprimanded by God even they such an ideal model for a good church. They never compromised with sins, served God  the way God told them, but God against them because they has left thy first love. All the sessions in this Retreat solicit us to introspect within our selves.

Because most of the time I assisted in Youth sessions, so what I got the most is from Bang Ojak. These are few points that has rooted in my mind from this retreat:

1. We are special coz we made by God’s hand. We can do anything if really want to. Believe in yourself. God never creates a garbages.

2. God never asks something that you don’t have.

3. It’s not what you have that is matter, but what you do with what you have that is matter.

4. Life is short. What have you done with what you have recently? Have you fulfilled God’s purpose on you? Have you told your parents or family that you love them, have you showed it with real deeds?

From Paulus Lie:

5. If you serve HIM in your utopia (comfort zone), it’s not a service, it’s fun. A service means, you go out from your comfort zone, serve at the place that people need the most.

From Rully Simandjuntak

6. God is more concern for your BEING rather than on your DOING. He won’t always give you an easy road, sometimes you would find many obstacles on your job, it’s because He wants you to grow up and be mature.

7. Work hard, work smart, work sincerely.

8. God has created life as a field to learn

9. Start the day with thankful feelings and end it with evaluation.

9. It’s not a job that give us peace, but God has used your Job as a medium to give you peace

10. You are blessed to be a blessing in wherever you are right now.

Those few points reprimanded me. I’m not confident with my ownself, there are many things that I’m lack of, and I used it as a reasons to withdraw myself from many services or chances. And it also the reason I don’t have a courage to chase my dreams until now. Bang Ojak reminds me that I’m special, and if God asks me to do something He knows that I’m capable to do it. I can do all things with Him by my side. I used to blame God why He gave me some talents but it’s just so-so. But I realized it’s not God’s fault, It was mine, God already gave me many talents, but I haven’t practiced and developed it yet, so it was just so-so talents. I never can be a good liturgist if I never have enough practice, I would never get a good score, if I never study before the test. I would never reach my goal, if I never put an effort into it. What results have you expected if you haven’t given your best shot? Believe in yourself , coz God already gave you the capital to do great things and He never asks something that you don’t have.

Pak Rully also reminds me that I need to enjoy my job instead of being grumpy. – Well to be true, I enjoy my job, but there are few things that makes me uncomfortable with my job right now-. He told us to be thankful all the time. People can see us when we enjoy our work, and the result will come out better. What he had faced in one of the government institution is harder that my challenges right now, so I think i still can handle it. I mustn’t be grumpy with my condition, instead I need to be thankful and see the bright side… Just an intermezzo, after being refreshed by Pak Rully’s speech, I’ve made a commitment about my job, but the first day I come back to work, I already had a test..And i almost failed. Xp

The Reasons Why I still Hang On

Okay..I’m trying to list down the reason why I need to hang on and not quit. While there are few companies whom tried to recruit me and I already refuse all of them without even trying to attend the first interview. Trying to make up my mind and see the positive sides..Haish..

1.  I’m still fresh in marketing field, I still need to learn the market leader way of thinking and I need to make up my CV.

2. Hmm..Maybe If I’m quit, I won’t get another company that permit me to go home on time (Teng Go), that allows me to have my social life and fulfill my services .

3. The facilities here are quite ok, even sometimes I still feel I’m underpaid (after seeing the vacancy with same position but simpler job desc and higher salary). I don’t wanna leave my utopia zone, even these few weeks  feel more like hell for me (drama queen mode on).

4. I feel sorry for ED (big big boss) and HT (big boss) who taught me so many things and I don’t know how to tell them if I want to quit. Especially to HT who was my direct boss and tutor and I respect him so muuuuuch. The only reason that can give me courage to tell him I quit is if I get a scholarship to study master degree.

5. They haven’t found another staff that can help or replace me yet. (of course they haven’t, while I haven’t place my resignation letter)

6.The silliest reason is, if I quit right now, I can’t get leave permit to enjoy my Thai trip next august..Huehehehe…and especially can’t have enough money to enjoy it. Xp

 

Are they enough to keep me here?Still dunno, I still have many ambitions that can’t be fulfilled here, and I already fed up with some conditions here. Ow..the most crucial reasons why I must stay is:

7. I need to prove to myself that I’m not a quitter!!I will fight till the end. What I mean “till the end” is I need to resolve “the thing” that fed me up these days and someday I can proud of myself that I’ve grown up in making decision.

 

Ciayoooooo!!!!!Zu zu!!!!You can do it devie…You are more capable than what you think..Learn to be thankful and not grumpy, and then you can see the brighter side.

Happy Father’s day, dad

Happy father’s day, daddy. I wish I can tell it directly to you. Even though I know that you’re not here anymore, you’re still my hero.^^..What I regret the most is I never tell you how much I love you. At the airport, the last time I saw you, I wish I had the courage to hug and tell you that I love you. Unluckily, because of the awkwardness, I didn’t do that. geez..I love you so muuuuucccch….

This song from Ada band and Gita Gutawa is dedicated for you, dad.

“yang Terbaik Bagimu”

Teringat masa kecilku
Kau peluk dan kau manja
Indahnya saat itu
Buatku melambung
Di sisimu terngiang
Hangat nafas segar harum tubuhmu
Kau tuturkan segala mimpi-mimpi
Serta harapanmu

Kau ingin ku menjadi
Yang terbaik bagimu
Patuhi perintahmu
Jauhkan godaan
Yang mungkin kulakukan
Dalam waktuku beranjak dewasa
Jangan sampai membuatku
Terbelenggu jatuh dan terinjak

Reff :
Tuhan tolonglah sampaikan
Sejuta sayangku untuknya
Ku terus berjanji
Tak kan khianati pintanya
Ayah dengarlah betapa sesungguhnya
Ku mencintaimu
Kan ku buktikan ku mampu penuhi maumu

Andaikan detik itu
Kan bergulir kembali
Kurindukan suasana
Basuh jiwaku
Membahagiakan aku
Yang haus akan kasih dan sayangmu
Tuk wujudkan segala sesuatu
Yang pernah terlewati

我好想你爸爸，我想告訴你，我真的真的 很愛你

I don’t know whether I can do a great things, but for sure, i promise to do a small things that can makes you proud of me. Love you, dad, so muuuuuch…Saranghaeyo..

Mau dibawa ke mana?

Post ane yang ke-100, setelah 2 tahun bikin blog..^^..Kali ini dibikin dalam bahasa Indonesia aja karena takut kelamaan mikirnya dan kehilangan esensi yang mau disharing..^^.>Semoga bisa menjadi berkat.

Hari Minggu yang lalu, sebenarnya malas banget ke gereja, padahal pembicaranya hari itu bagus. Singkat cerita, setelah pergumulan dan bujukan bbm dari teman-teman pemuda, diputuskanlah untuk hadir di persekutuan pemuda dan terus lanjut ke kebaktian 3 yang notabene karena udah komitmen harus hadir,yah mau ga mau dateng deh. Dalam 2 kebaktian yang berturut-turut ini, berasa banget dikuatkan sama Tuhan oleh kedua pembicara yang berbeda. Keduanya secara ga langsung mengingatkan akan resolusi yang pernah dibuat di awal tahun dan sampai sekarang belum bener-bener dilaksanakan.

Melalui post ini mau sharing aja sih apa yang didapat hari itu, terutama yang di Persekutuan Pemuda. Hari itu temanya kaya judul lagu band, “Mau Dibawa Ke mana?” dan tujuan dari tema itu adalah mengenai tujuan hidup. Hari itu Ev. Alvin Jeremiah yang jadi pembicaranya, sedikit meralat mengenai judul/ tema. Menurut beliau kalau “mau dibawa ke mana” itu memiliki kesan bahwa kita-lah yang memiliki otoritas untuk menentukan arah tujuan hidup kita, sementara kita dapat hidup, memperoleh keselamatan saja itu semua hanya karunia dan anugerah Tuhan, jadi sudah selayaknya masa depan kita pun Tuhan yang menentukan. Sudahkah kita menyerahkan itu ke dalam tangan Tuhan? Kasarnya sih yah, hidup aja udah atas belas kasihan Tuhan, eh buat masa depan mau seenak udelnya, kayanya kurang etis yah (kalau bahasa ane).

Setelah menekankan mengenai otoritas Tuhan atas hidup kita, Ev. Alvin ini mengajak kita untuk mendalami mengenai kisah orang kaya yang menghampiri Yesus dan bertanya bagaimana caranya masuk Surga (Markus 10:17-27). Sudut pandang yang dia gunakan untuk membahas perikop ini cukup unik dan memancing kita yang sebagian ada di sana untuk introspeksi diri. Perikop ini tidak hanya sebatas membahas masalah orang kaya yang ingin amsuk Surga namun memiliki makna yang lebih mendalam.

Markus 10:17 Pada waktu Yesus berangkat untuk meneruskan perjalanan-Nya, datanglah seorang berlari-lari mendapatkan Dia dan sambil bertelut di hadapan-Nya ia bertanya: “Guru yang baik, apa yang harus kuperbuat untuk memperoleh hidup yang kekal?”

Hal-hal yang ditebalkan merupakan hal yang ditekankan oleh Ev. Alvin. Beliau menggambarkan bahwa pada masa itu, bila Yesus sedang mengajar atau berjalan-jalan, umunya orang yang mengikuti DIA akan berbondong-bondong. Namun orang kaya tersebut berlari-lari di tengah kerumunan orang (which is cukup sulit dilakukan) dan kemudian orang kaya tersebut bertelut yang merupakan suatu sikap yang cukup sulit dilakukan apabila orang tersebut tidak sungguh-sunggu menganggap Yesus orang yang lebih tinggi darinya. Sikap bertelut ini menggambarkan orang kaya ini men”Tuhan”kan Yesus. Kemudian pertanyaan yang Ia lontarkan mengenai cara memperoleh hidup kekal juga menggambarkan orang ini cukup “tinggi hati” dengan beranggapan keselamatan dapat diperoleh dengan usaha sendiri. Kembali ditekankan bahwa keselamatan merupakan anugerah Allah.

Mar 10: 18-20 Jawab Yesus: ”Mengapa kaukatakan Aku baik? Tak seorangpun yang baik selain dari pada Allah saja. Engkau tentu mengetahui segala perintah Allah: Jangan membunuh, jangan berzinah, jangan mencuri, jangan mengucapkan saksi dusta, jangan mengurangi hak orang, hormatilah ayahmu dan ibumu!” Lalu kata orang itu kepada-Nya: “Guru, semuanya itu telah kuturuti sejak masa mudaku.”

Pada ayat tersebut, Yesus hanya menyebutkan hukum kelima sampai sepuluh saja, hukum yang mengatur hubungan horizontal antar manusia. Pernyataan ini kemudian dijawab oleh si orang kaya, bahwa ia telah melakukan semua itu sejak masih muda. Berdasarkan studi yang telah dilakukan, diketahu bahwa si orang kaya ini merupakan salah satu orang yang memiliki jabatan tinggi di antara ahli taurat atau pemuka agama. Mungkin dalam bayangan pria ini, dengan segala hal yang dia lakukan Yesus akan menjawab bahwa Ia sudah dipastikan akan masuk Surga, namun pada kenyataannya Yesus menjawab:

Mar 10:21 Tetapi Yesus memandang dia dan menaruh kasih kepadanya, lalu berkata kepadanya: ”Hanya satu lagi kekuranganmu: pergilah, juallah apa yang kaumiliki dan berikanlah itu kepada orang-orang miskin, maka engkau akan beroleh harta di sorga, kemudian datanglah ke mari dan ikutlah Aku.”

Dalam jawaban Yesus ini, Ia tidak menekankan mengenai harta saja, tetapi merupakan wujud nyata dari kasih dan hubungan vertikal kita dengan Tuhan yang diatur dalam hukum 1-4 pada hukum Taurat. Tetapi ketika mendengar jawaban tersebut, pria itupun menjadi kecewa dan meninggalkan Yesus (Mar 10:22). Apabila orang tersebut sungguh mengasihi Tuhan, bahkan sudah rela bertelut, dan Men-Tuhan-kan Yesus, sudah sepatutnyalah Ia melaksanakan apa yang diperintahkan. Namun kenyataannya tidak.

Mar 10:23-25 Lalu Yesus memandang murid-murid-Nya di sekeliling-Nya dan berkata kepada mereka: ”Alangkah sukarnya orang yang beruang masuk ke dalam Kerajaan Allah.” Murid-murid-Nya tercengang mendengar perkataan-Nya itu. Tetapi Yesus menyambung lagi: ”Anak-anak-Ku, alangkah sukarnya masuk ke dalam Kerajaan Allah. Lebih mudah seekor unta melewati lobang jarum dari pada seorang kaya masuk ke dalam Kerajaan Allah.”

Tak heran para murid tercengang ketika mendengar pernyataan Yesus. Pada jaman tersebut, ada anggapan bahwa orang-orang kaya adalah orang yang diberkati Tuhan, orang yang diberkati Tuhan pasti dikasihiNya dan pasti masuk Surga. Jadi bilamana seorang kaya yang diaksihi Tuhan tidak dapat masuk Surga, bagaimana dengan mereka (murid-murid Yesus) yang hanya orang biasa.

Di Ayat berikutnya, Mar 10:27 (Yesus memandang mereka dan berkata: ”Bagi manusia hal itu tidak mungkin, tetapi bukan demikian bagi Allah. Sebab segala sesuatu adalah mungkin bagi Allah.) Tuhan Yesus kembali menegaskan bahwa keselamatan hanya berasal dari pada Allah saja, tidak ada yang mustahil bagiNya.

Demikian pula dengan masa depan kita, sudah seharusnya kita bertanya ke mana Tuhan mau membawa kita/ menempatkan kita. Ketika kita mulai membentuk mindset seperti itu, dan kita mulai melatih kepekaan kita terhadap suara Tuhan, niscaya Tuhan akan memberikan tanda untuk kita, selama kita juga turut berusaha. Percaya, Dia pasti akan memberikan yang terbaik.

Well..ga tau c, ketika denger firman ini teringat pergumulan-pergumulan ketika baca buku Purpose Driven Life. Bergumul mencari tujuan hidup, sampe suatu saat ketika baca buku itu dapat sebuah visi. Resolusi tahun baru kemarin pun dibuat untuk mencapai visi tersebut, namun lately kegigihan untuk mencapai visi tersebut pun udah mulai luntur, dengan kondisi sa-te yang masih berantakan, kepercayaan diri yang turun naek,etc. Dari sini diingatkan lagi sama Ko Alvin, kalau visi itu bener2 dari Tuhan, semustahil apapun Tuhan mampu untuk membukakan jalan as long kita mencoba dan berusaha..

Rasa-rasanya udah terlalu panjang yah untuk satu pos. Mungkin mengenai khotbah dari pak Mangapul Sagalah disharingkan di lain waktu..^^

In Love with 49 days

Kyaaa….I’m in love..truly in love with 49 Days, one of the best Korean Drama I ever watched. I also like Brilliant Legacy,Secret Garden, Prosecutor Princess, etc. It’s all about a sweet romance between the OTP’s. But there’s something special in 49 days, that urges me to write a blog about the drama. This drama doesn’t have a usual happy end (many people will think it such a tragic end, but I still categorize it as happy end). This 20 episodes drama taught me many things.

49 days is a story about a lady (Ji Hyun) who is being in a comatose because of car accident. She gets 49 days to collect 3 teardrops from 3 persons who loves her sincerely (besides her own family) to get alive. She must get the tears by using someone else’s body (Yi Kyung), and she mustn’t tell who she is. Her 49 days journey reveals many bitter truths about her life and her acquaintances. Her fiancée (Min Ho) was a jerk who just wants her inheritance, one of her best friend (In Jung) was working together with him to take all her wealth. Through those 49 days she finds out which friend is her true friend. The one  (Han Kang) whom she thought hates her is in love with her and help her to accomplish the mission.

She almost gave up when she knew her best friend and fiancée betray her. She almost gave up when it felt nobody loves her sincerely. Well, in the middle of the story she changed her 49 days’ objective; from getting 3 sincere tears into helping her family to avoid bankruptcy that was caused by her fiancée. Her love for her family is her trigger to get through those 49 days. In the end, she got those 3 tears, woke up from her comatose, lived for 6 days, and then died. It seems unfair right? But there are many things that I learned and make the story become so sweet.

1. Life is precious so Live your life to the fullest

Sometimes we’re living day by day without motivation and feel fed up with our lives. And there are many people choosing suicide as the way out from their problems, while the others are striving to keep alive. This story teaches us we mustn’t waste our lives. Do good to other while we’re still able, even in the end nobody will appreciate our deeds. We won’t have any privilege to have those 49 days in the real life to fix the unfinished things, so we must give the best shot while we’re still alive, coz….

2. When the death comes we can’t run

In this story Ji Hyun had already conquered her 49 days, but still when the death comes, she can’t run. It seems unfair. But it shows us, no matter how hard you have strived for being alive, you couldn’t conquer death. This movie keeps telling that human can’t control Life and death.

This two lessons makes me remember an old proverb: Live everyday as if it were your last.

3. Don’t judge the book by its cover

You never can guess what’s inside people’s heart. The one who you think is your friend might be your enemy, vice versa. But it doesn’t mean you need to live your life full of distrust.

4. Gotta move on

Abandoned or left by our beloved ones is hard to be coped. But It doesn’t mean the time would stop to let us dwell in sorrow. Time keeps running, dwelling in sorrow would make the person who left us feels unease. So, we must move on and makes them proud.

5. Choose to be Grateful all the time

Ji Hyun was betrayed, after getting the tears she died, but she didn’t blame anybody. She kept being thankful and enjoyed her last 6 days on earth. This is a quote which I got from dramabeans and I like it very much:

Ji-hyun: If I hadn’t gone on my 49 days’ journey, my father’s company would be in Kang Min-ho’s hands, and I wouldn’t be in my right mind from the trauma of being betrayed by my fiancé and friend. It’s possible that my fate was to commit suicide from that shock. But because of my 49 days, I was able to receive love from someone like Kang-ie. I was able to love. I was able to guard my father’s company. And I was able to look back on the life I had lived. I’m grateful actually, because if I hadn’t known anything and died, I would’ve lived a fake life until death.

Ji Hyun chose to be grateful and she always tried to see the positive sides from anything. Yi Kyung chose to live bitter since Yi Soo’s death, and she couldn’t enjoy her life and live lonely. These two OTPs teach us and show us how to live our lives better.^^

The ending is teary and heart wrenching. But for me it ends happily. Ji Hyun dies but before she dies she got a chance to put everything in its right place. Protect her family from bankruptcy, and gather her family with her long lost sister, show her friends what the meaning of friendship is. And when she dies, many people cry for her, even we don’t know which one is crying sincerely, but at least for the people around her, she touched their lives and made some impacts. Have we already make our lives worth to be remembered?

Haish..love this drama so muuuuuuucccccch…..

Can time heals your grief?

This month I commemorate Daddy’s 6th years death anniversary.. geez, When I read the statement, I’m thinking why should we commemorate death anniversary? Why should we make our own self being so mellow? well it doesn’t mean I am a heartless. To be honest, I became so melancholic around this month, especially during 16th and 17th, the exact date of daddy’s death. And during this month, or maybe whenever I miss my daddy, I change my status in BB or, FB or twitter about how I feel and pour my grief.

During the grief, many people will come to encourage and cheer you. Many people will say, “you must be strong”, “your daddy already live in a better place”, “you must let him/her go, so he/she can rest in peace”, “don’t be so mellow lha, at least you will see your father again sometimes in the future” yeah something like that. But I think the feeling of losing someone you love only can be understood by others who have experienced it too. It’s easy to say all the words that I mention above, but to be the subject who must do it, it’s hard. People like to say time will heal you, but is it true? Even it’s already 6 years, the pain still aching. For me the time can’t heal the pain or the grief, but it can help me to cope with it. And I believe it also happen to others.

Just be sure, that God never gives you something that you can’t handle. When He takes some one you love, He has prepared a better plan beyond your grief, and trust Him that He will accompany you through it. Even after years the pain still aching, but you can make it and grow up more.

This post was made just to cheer up myself and others whom feeling sad after losing someone..^^

the 6th CNY without you,dad

Today I feel very mellow, Even though tomorrow is Chinese New Year (CNY). This moment makes me miss my daddy even more. This is the sixth CNY since He’s gone.

I still remember our last CNY at 2005. Two or three weeks before CNY, daddy was hospitalized, and that’s the time when the doctor diagnosed he got small cell carcinoma or we known as lungs cancer. When we found out dad’s disease, it was already late. The cancer was already in last stadium (IV). We didn’t tell daddy about his disease at that time.. He got home after being hospitalized for + 1 week. My father’s siblings asked us to send him to Taiwan, with many struggles we agreed to do it, even we realized maybe we couldn’t see daddy back to Indonesia anymore. We arranged the departure after CNY.

In CNY morning, from what I remembered, daddy would sit down in the living room, waiting for his children “pai nien” with him. But at that year, I woke up late, when I woke up, daddy wasn’t in the living room, I searched for him, and found him went around the house. And like a little kid, I followed him. His stares were different, I can’t describe it, but it makes me sad. The night before the CNY, we have family dinner in daddy’s little brother’s house, because my granny was living there. That night was the first and last time I took daddy’s pict with my phone. Few days after the CNY, we sent daddy to the airport to go to Taiwan. And that was the last time I see him alive.

Since that time I never really anxious wait for CNY, because it reminds me about my dad. Even in fact I still waiting for the “hong bao”….Xp..

Miss you so much dad…I miss your scolding, I miss “chui poy” your back, I miss your overprotective love..TT…I still remember, when nobody support me to chase my dreams, you are the one who told me, “just try!”, you never promise me any reward, but if I achieve something you’ll give me reward silently. Whoaaaaa…How much I miss those time…Love you dad..Saranghaeyo..Chan lak kun…Chan ja kid thoung kun…